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Angelica

Where are you tonight?
Wild flower in starlit heaven
Still enchanted in flight
Obsessions lament to freedom

A timeless word, the meanings changed
But I'm still burning in your flames,
Incessant, lustral masquerade,
Unengaged, dim lit love didn't taste the same

And I still wonder if you ever wonder the same
And I still wonder...

Eternity part I

As I turn away from a life so grey
Where have all the flowers gone?
Just what went wrong?
Innocence, insanity, irony
Stone cold reality
Oh lord come and save me
Do you think we're forever?

I've been in tears
Hope has died in me
But now I'm here, I don't wish to leave

Trapped in time
A miracle of hope and change
A swirling mass, no mercy now
If the truth hurts prepare for pain
Do you think we're forever?
The unseen, the eternal river of understanding
Persevering, dying escape
Forever tempting fate
Take me back
A flood of tears bonding my soul with my mind
A dream of love, reality closing in behind
As I close my eyes, the vision dies
As I bid my last farewell to mankind
The unseen, the eternal...

Eternity part II

Destiny, Infinity, Eternity

Eternity part III

So little time
Your crystal eyes gaze into mine
A burning flame
Forever dreaming, dreaming a lie

Trapped inside internal eyes
Caressed by innocence, a sanctuary for your mind
Born alone beneath pale sardonic skies
One love, one life, one sorrow

I won't reproach myself this time
A condemned man, granted a sweet reprieve
A turn of fate, a genial twist of the knife
Undying affection for life

Far Away

One common, subterranean destination
One life, another day
A vestal child unveiled by temptation
Innocence slips away

Far away

Been down so long
Too deep the water that I tread
Sometimes I feel myself going under
Sometimes I envy the dead

So take me far away

Suicide Veil

A sacrifice in the flight of dawn
The beauty of twisted reality
In my heart, my dreams

A sacrifice for freedom
Alone in the grace of the dark
The pains of a failed generation

I longed for the death of the sun
Another glorious revelation
Destiny's plan for ruin

I danced with the shadows
In tranquil chaos, I lay naked in the rain
An interception of light
A disturbing memory
This suicide veil I wear in shame

*anti-suicide

Cries On The Wind

Reaching out...
How things look different on the way down
Disillusioned, I've lost desire
Will I burn in the unforgiving fire?

From the flames, I walk away
I've found a way to erase the pain
An empty bottle, my receptacle
A guardian angel called escape

Don't dwell on the forthcoming
As I know it won't be happening
And you know, when I'm gone
You'll hear my cries on the wind

Shroud Of False

We are just a moment in time
A blink of an eye
A dream for the blind
Visions from a dying brain
I hope you don't understand

Lost Control

Life.. has betrayed me once again
I accept that some things will never change.
I've let your tiny minds magnify my agony
and it's left me with a chemical dependency for sanity.

Yes, I am falling... how much longer 'till I hit the ground?
I can't tell you why I'm breaking down.
Do you wonder why I prefer to be alone?
Have I really lost control?

I'm coming to an end,
I've realized what I could have been.
I can't sleep so I take a breath and hide behind my bravest mask,
I admit I've lost control
Lost control...

Empty

Empty vessel under the sun wipe the dust
from my face another morning black Sunday
coming down again.. coming down again
Empty vessel empty veins
empty bottle wish for rain that pain again
wash the blood off my face the pulse from my brain
And I feel that pain again

I'm looking over my shoulder cause millions
will whisper I'm killing myself again
Maybe I'm dying faster but nothing ever last I
remember a night from my past when I was
stabbed in the back and its all coming back
And I feel that pain again

I abhor you I condemn you cause this pain
will never end you got away without a
scratch and now you're walking on a lucky
path I have to laugh but you'd better watch
your back

there's pathetic opposition they're the
cause of my condition I'll be coming back
for them I've a solution for this sad
situation nothing left but to kill myself again
Because I'm so empty

Alternative 4

It's killing you, you're killing me
I'm clinging on to my sanity
All I need is a short term remedy
Come and hide me from this terrible reality...

Dreaded memories flood back to me
But there's still a willful mind behind these cold
psychotic eyes
Now I tread this path so differently
I've opened my mind and darkened my entire life.

I'll dance with the angels to celebrate the holocaust,
And far beyond my far gone pride,
Is knowing that we'll soon be gone,
Knowing that I'll soon be gone...

Feel

I've feeling, I won't be coming down from this,
I was searching through the heavens and somehow I slipped!

I feel, I'm seeing so clear

Trying to forget tomorrow and all that's happened
This is not the way, the way I was meant to be

I feel, I'm seeing so clear
I thought I was never going to die
I feel, I'm seeing so clear
We need more time

Slipping away, I think I'm gonna crack
Misplaced trust, loyalty stabbed in the gut

I feel, I'm seeing so clear
I thought I was never coming back

I've been down for awhile,
And now I'm coming back...

Destiny

I tried to murder the lonely,
Contemplate our mortality.

Into infinity,
Frozen memory

Wipe the tears from yesterday,
A time for change, take the pain away.

Angel, my destiny,
Can you feel me?

Holocaust

Take me with you when you go, I'm not staying here alone,
Push the button by the phone...
Inner freedom overshadows greed and reasons to stick around,
Crazy dreaming keeps me gleaming you'll be seething going down.
I'd waited so long, but the dream was over before it had begun,
I've waited so long, now you haven't time to run...

God Is Coming

Judas Judas don't you want me?
Why can't you look me in the eye?
I only tried to get to the other side,
I only tried to survive.
God is coming ...

Flowers

I had a dream, far away from here,
Far away from you, far from all the pain.
With strength in numbers, the sad betrayal braves,
Return to desecrate those memories again.
And there you were taking flowers from my grave...
And there you were stealing flowers from my grave...
I kiss the ground but I can hardly breathe,
As you scrape me from the pavement once again.
Safety in numbers, you thought I'd washed away,
But I'm still waiting for the rain...

Going Nowhere

Somebody somewhere your life's going nowhere,
Somebody somewhere your heart's growing colder,
Somebody somewhere your game's nearly over,
Somebody somewhere your life...

Lights Out

So you made it? Shame you had to fake it..
So you feigned the way? You're a fucking disgrace to the name..

So you reaped what I had sown?
Scattered ashed blown into the unknown,
While you were selling my soul, cold..

Black lies failing... forging sound..
Lights out as you hit the ground.

Expire

Innocence and irony,
A a dark shade of fantasy as the serpent slips right into me
Living out your fallacy,
I'm just another casualty of casual insanity.

Summers white cause the sun has gone,
But it wont be long til tomorrow comes and youre on the run with what you've taken.
Knowing what I should have known, I'm staring at the telephone,
And I think our god has been and gone, but I'm still waiting.

I've a solution. a final solution

Reality Clash

Resist you never could you never will bare my soul for a moment of delusion blame it on the past catching up to take the glory without substance selling someone elses soul to take you further falling deeper into false stealing heros you dont realise the shit youre in for once its come around again so exercise your right to run your right to ruin

Breaking away from broken days of shame and illusion,
playing the game.
Validate a life of lies,
So high on manufactured pride.

Faking away, making waves to gain,
Reality astray, delusion paved the way.
While we made it to the other side,
You lost your pride and your alibis.

Line Of Fire

Face the panic of today,
Breaking barriers from yesterday,
I fell into the line of fire,
I broke down in the line of fire.

Shattered past, and future fears,
Take a moment far away from here,
Cut the strings and fly away,
Cut the strings and fly away.

Taste the hell you put us through,
Grace the heavens I can promise you,
Take a hand in the line of fire,
Make a stand behind the wire.

Relapse

Look inside and find the parts
bringing forth the lines of sanity
A broken mind and open heart torn apart without lucidity
Consummate and turn the page
embrace the change from what you used to be
Procreate and fade away,
I guess its time to face those memories

Broken spirits, open fears,
darksome shades combine fragility
Frigid smiles across the miles,
guily eyes surmise asymmetry
Relapse on both sides of the tracks,
flashing back to taste the irony
Manipulate and slip away,
embrace the shame of what you used to be

Rain washed the panic from today,
Decimation of anxiety,
Tribulations drift away,
Pray tomorrow offers clarity.

Rain washed the panic from today,
Affirmation of mortality,
Trivialities astray,
Pray tomorrow brings stability.

Madre, Protégenos

Madre, protégenos

Detrás de la mañana

El tiempo dirá a quién espero
la luz caía mientras el destino te alejaba
mientras las lágrimas fluían
cuando corrí hacia ti en el frío
te hubiera seguido y destruído mi alma
pero te amaré y perdonaré aunque nunca lo sepas.

Estoy cansado ahora, si he de ser sincero
mientras corría hacia ti en el frío
a pesar de que no albergabas ni luz ni esperanza
por la mañana seguiré amando a las dos.

©2005 Duncan Patterson